When I Decided to Love You, I Dug my Grave

When I decided to love you

I knew I was doomed.

My soul fled from me

Clinging to you, beckoning

To be salvaged.



When I decided to love you,

I was convinced I’d be leaving my body

Watch the wind dry out my skin

The sun chap my lips

And gravity to pull my hair

All of its glorious black strands

Fallen to the ground



When I mouthed the cursed utterance

I had an inkling I would give away

My eyes to worms

And my guts to acid



When I held your hand

I foresaw my limbs gnawed by insects

That my fingernails would fall

And from the stumps nothing will grow



When our lips touched

I had a vision

That I would lose my flesh to time

Bodily fluids to nature

And all my bones to earth



December 9

3:04

Countless Meetings

I remember Aguinaldo
How he was made witness to our numerous meetings
Both accidental and not
How he quietly sat on his horse.
A sculpted slab watching
As I muster all strength to hide
My heart, which is like a worm
Uncontrollably sticking out of my mouth
As i spew words as casual and natural
As possible. And you
Stood there.
Something sticking out of your mouth as well
It was not your heart. you just spew smoke
But at least we have something in common

4:36

December 3, 2010

To My Surprise

I was searching desperately
For the perfect poetry
To my surprise
I found you

Dec.5